Mia Ehru

I wish.. it snowed

That very chapter means a lot to me and it's the reason why I chose my avatar.. see? *smiles sadly* It's Ai wearing the same hood.. If remembering that scene helps you realize just how valuable your life is, then make sure you never forget it everytime you crash down. Your grandma, your true friends.. are still there, and I'm sure they'd shatter if you chose to disappear.. That bully.. even if he made you suffer, he might have suffered as well. He lost his parents and stated to be cruel since then.. Maybe it was all he was able to do not to fall down, not to drown. I can't tell.. if he's already realised what he did.. but he'll do someday, somehow. Don't desire death.. not for yourself, not for anyone else because.. You can't cure your own suffering by making others suffer..

Even if you feel blue don't desire, not even for a little your own death.. I know it's something difficult to avoid when you're feeling this way.. yet you don't deserve suffering this badly because of how things have gone so far with your friends.. You're just being misunderstood and unappreciated. Don't wish you should've died in that accident.. because some people will still love you and worry about you, even if your mates don't. Whenever you feel like giving up remember.. what you'd always kept fighting for, and that is.. what you loved.

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First time answering you in a post sis!! .. <333 And in my case I also prefer watching anime.. although I sometimes read manga as well

Still.. I see know real reason for them to blame you. Even if that has happened.. it's by no means your fault. They should realize that.. *smiles sadly* I can't understand them at all.. And.. Akako-chan.. that's must be tough.. right? That's never happened to me before.. but still.. how's it going?

yep.. hmmm.. *nods slightly*

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How come..? Why would the blame you..? It's by no means your fault. It's just.. unfair. I'm so sorry that talking with them didn't help.. Hope they'll understand and listen to you some day..

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It isn't a messy text so don't worry.. it can be understood.. Seems like you've had a hard time, but little by little you've managed to get through. It's natural to feel down whenever you remember those things.. friendship is one of the most precious things and thus, it has a great ability to hurt us easily.. Just wondering.. if it's not too much for me to ask.. have you ever tried to tell your mates how you feel about all this? I believe.. it should be better to talk about it with them since even if it's somehow related to the past, it's still affecting and hurting you. You don't have to keep suffering that way.. *smiles* Anyway.. sorry for the long speech.. Hope everything will get better eventually, whatever happens next. *hugs tightly* Sorry.. I can't help it. *smiles sadly* I also feel that way.. but I guess in my case it's slightly my fault.. It's hard for me talk about this.. People have always avoided me and I've become sort of a different person. I'm not cheerful and quite weak, as well.. Now that I've moved to another city, I've been drift apart from my only friend and over again.. I feel lonely.. I can't manage to make friends and I usually feel down, awkward and surrounded by hurtful memories. I've improved in a way.. but still feel scared, terrified to keep on trying. Guess I just don't want to be hurt that badly once again. Natsumi-chan.. I hope so badly that you make friends because I get the feeling that you deserve it.. I'm sure some people would love to know you.. *hugs* *smiles shyly* Seems like a talked a bit too much, didn't I..?

Found out several things.. First that this site has made me feel awesomely better so far.. *hugs everyone* Secondly, found out that I'm a bit of a slacker and I'm not posting too much (hope i'll get a bit more free time this x-mas.. *smiles sadly* ) .. and last but not least, found out that two people in here mean so much too me.. *smiles* and that I'm so happy to have get to meet them both..

Ai Haibara.. Didn't even hesitate when answering..

This one..