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An accumulation of things I am unhappy/unsatisfied about. Things that i have yet to come to accept even until now.. I think. Yes, definitely. So insecure as a person..

I must say, I think i'm also in this perpetual state of depression. It's not like i don't smile or laugh or do other normal stuff, it's just that i know that deep down i have this constant depression. I think it's an accumulation of many things that have happened to me in the past several years. Kind of freaks me out to think that I do have depression at such a young age, but yeah more so recently I just have this feeling that I am depressed. Even though I laugh, and smile and all that stuff in front of others. It's like putting on a mask. Well not intentionally. It's just that when I'm left alone (like now), i just think of all sorts of unhappy things.

Started off quite great, with me watching Nurarihyon no mayo: sennen makyou (the season 2)! The second season is just way way awesome than season 1! Glad I gave the 2nd season a chance. And then I heard the news of DCTP no longer doing the weekly episodes... :eek: It makes me sad, even until now :cry:

I'll be really annoyed and irritated when somebody disturbs me when i'm watching my anime or reading! You mean music? You can listen and then play it? That is so COOL! :-o

The holidays is a time for me that I actually gain weight (from all the sitting down in front of the computer). So for me it is impossible to lose weight during the holidays! But this is just me... If you have the will, I'm sure it is possible!!