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O_o whoa I'm sorry. I used to be a troll so it's my troll senses that's doing this ^^;;;

oh right, I rly need to start being aware of that :oops: :oops: :oops:

oh. ehh,,, close nuff

... Tru- *Gunshot*...

She is the perfect example how girls like to keep things secret.

we already know that she is younger than 16 and older than 12. she mentioned it somewhere in this topic or the other. I;'m guessing around 15 or 14

whoa how's that happen? O_o oh well, i can't do anything about it... It looks like she does live in USA we dont know where. and she is Chinese she mentioned that few times.

It is already there.

no if it is both it is slightly different

no if it is both it is slightly different

it's both

Ok never mind then. It seems you are impossible LOL jkjk

I'll make you :twisted: :twisted:

43) Study further on my studies of science.

No you can be Froslass (Lady and there is only female gender) I am Noctowl. I'm insomniac so. yea,,,,

LOL. You can't kill someone you care about unless you have grudge over that person, according to Detective Conan

You can kill me first.

Cammy3131, I'm glad you posted this and I am proud. It's really hard to talk about things like this. People often hide things like this because it hurts too much to remind themselves. Your story made me cry. I can feel the emotions and your souls that you have put into this story. I might say something bad, and I don't think I should say it because it hurts my feelings too. But at the same time, I think it would be guilty of hiding what I feel about your story. So please understand.... . First, about the birthday, that's the (one of the) exact reason why I don't like birthdays. I don't usually get anything what I want. It's just what is needed like school supplies, which I give them away later. That kind of thing happened to me a lot of times starting from when I was 4 so I started avoiding my birthdays since I was 8. Trust me, birthdays we see in medias, books, or whatever, are just fantasy where it is telling us it is the best time of your life and such. IT IS NOT. We just have to face the real world, where happiness is the smallest part of our life. Second, Well, the thing about your sister, how old is she? since you said she 'beat' you before leaving your 16th to go to the prom, I'm assuming she is about 19. You said the your parents divorced when you were four so if your sister was around 7, the thing about divorce between your parents might be the cause of her being a "B" because it may have cause emotional long term stress (via shock of divorce). It is common for a child that is around 6~10 to grow up as a 'bad child' because of an event or conflict they saw or experienced where they grow up. The thing about your sister being abusive can be as similar as you dad, since your dad knows more about your sister than you by about 3 years. And I gotta say, your sister is some troll if she is THAT much of a "B." That is no fun, and I know because I was a troll, but your sister is way beyond past the line. I really hate to say this, but your sister needs help, A BIG ONE. It's true, who will hit their own sister? well, Like I said, it can be the stress and shock she had since her childhood. She needs to let her feelings go, but she is afraid of it. Her aggressive behavior explains that she is in fear of that same event happening again. She might even have nightmares of that event as well. Third, killing yourself? that won't solve a (excuse me for my language from here.) god damn thing. Looks like your sister don't give a damn thing about your life right? well, let's say you actually killed yourself. Who would mourn over your dead body? Maybe your mother, maybe your father, but would your sister? I don't think so. Don't think about that stupid stuff. Let your feelings go. I know this is very difficult but this is how the damned messed up world is.(excuse my language until here.) I know I should say something that would cheer you up, but the best way to get away with this is by letting out all of your feelings. Why would I say this? well, here is my part of story. I have gone through depression: TWICE. It seems almost impossible to get through, but you have to realize things that you have forgotten about. I was in the similar place as you were, where no one would listen to your story. I had to go through depression alone when I was in Korea, where I had no friends. The thing 'friends' I had were action figure toys which I talked to most often whenever I got home. I remember clearly that there were voices of those toys talking to me and actually moving around as if it was alive. I also often talked to my self and have mood swings. My parents though I was going insane because of my actions and thoughts. They soon found out I had similar symptoms as "Psychosis" that is caused by severe psycho-social stress. I was 8 at the time where I started giving up and rejecting birthdays. My two older sisters won't talk to me. They would go out and play with things called "friends." My parents taught me everything up to 6th grade level when I was just 8 at the time because I refused to go to school, where I would get beaten up so bad that I was hospitalized 5 times in first 3 months of my first grade year. These events are still stuck in my head because of the shock is so intense, and these causes me problems. All this made me depressed when I was just 8 years old, pretty rare for such young age. I haven't told anyone at the time because I didn't know what was wrong with me anyways. I was as silent as a mute person, so I was able to hide my feelings easier and no one found out. The depression thing ended when I came to U.S. shortly after those event. When the people were trying to make a conversation with me at school, I panicked thinking that they would beat me up again, but I realized that they showed a thing called 'care' and 'kindness.' When I realized these beautiful things, I opened my hearts, and let my feelings go. Second time is different there aren't much to say about this one. The second time of depression started about a month ago, and ended when I joined DCW. I was depressed at the time because I was so stressed on one thing too much. DCW helped me get out of it by showing the 'Joy' in life of social network. Well, I got carried off there. If I said anything too cruel, I'm sorry for that. So don't hold your feelings in, let it out because it is one of the cause of depression.