Forever Lost

Have fun Saturday.. I see J-man again .. after Wednesday.. >.>''' this could be good or bad. I won't see him Sunday though... and I don't know if he's changing shifts already this upcoming Tuesday.. 'cause if he is... it's gonna kill me. It'll equal no time to hang out with him. Ever. But it would make him happy... *sigh*

:3 All of ya'll who think you'd sound good as a certain character for voice acting should audition for the episode I'm doing... XPP *you know I couldn't help it XD* I do a pretty darn good Sonoko in my selfish opinion XDDD but hey other people agree >3>

There apparently are good things about being the person who doesn't exist... no one notices you enough to stalk you..

O.o scary..

@Moonlight Magician: Yes. My heart is made of cold steel. Nothing you can do to change that o.o @Nana-chan: I can describe you like that simply because I can :3

@Misaki-chan: The charger was in the other room and I wasn't supposed to be awake.. so I couldn't exactly go out there... His eyes are most likely hazel. That's the best conclusion I can reach. Mine are starting to do the same.. I used to have chocolate brown eyes but now I have green in them and the brown has lightened up :/ Oh wellll Can't wait for kaichou to get back :3

Well I'm not the bravest to say "I like you" jokingly or seriously.. and I don't think that'd blow over well >.>''''' We're not really close la.. and I suck at noticing things. I will once again attempt to be more observant! Also.. I think. Think. His eyes are brown-green. I keep trying to figure it out, but I can't exactly stare at his eyes without being suspicious..

@Misaki-chan: *facepalm* Not someone like me. He'll get the perfect girl for him, and someone as freaking selfish and dorky as me couldn't match that at all. P.S. My laptop is just about to die so..

Eveeeeeeeentually.

My nee-chan and her new fiancé were like that.. *not my actual sister but someone who's like one..* Sadly.. to add to the he can't like me thing... he really really really liked her... and then his best friend betrayed him and asked her out. Now they're engaged. People don't get over stuff like that fast, right? It was toward the end of last year..... So yeah. And she's 200x better than me in every way so XD

@nana-chan: Hmmm... well.... When other people are around I kinder disappear. Like, he doesn't talk to me at all o.o But if they're gone he does. Like in the car it was quiet he asked what I wanted to do for college... but.. normal people do that so.. :/ @Cure-kun: XDD Well.. I'm keeping my liking him a total secret from everyone but my mom. She's the ONLY one I can trust to not blurt it out. I'm proud of my acting skills around my older sister and my brother-in-law. My older sister was all "Were you on a date yesterday?" and I kept a straight face and was all "Huuuh? No." and she goes "well you two were alone and you were all smiley when you were out of the car" "What's wrong with two friends going to see a movie? And what? Was I supposed to be all HEEEY YYOOUU WHAT ARE YOU DOING AT MY HOUUSE I HAAATEE YOU?" and she backed off and was all "oh, well -insert my bro in law's name- might tease you about it" fuufuufuu

Yeah, he's been working on that apparently. TT.TT BUT HE'S LIKE 22! That's like me liking... a ten year old. It's just so unlikely.. I'm not sweet. In fact he called me crazy >3>'' Not like in a mean way.. but he did say I was crazy. And he's called me a kid before. And he scoffed when someone called me pretty. *my proof that he couldn't possibly like me* And 98% of the male population wouldn't like me XD @Cure-kun: Unfortunately, I'm the only one stuttering, murmuring, blushing, and completely unable to talk about NORMAL things. He's mr.cool guy. He just looks amused whenever I do that, and teases me about my Japanese.

>.>''''''''''' He did say that he's been trying to please other people too much. Maybe that's it. He was just being nice. *nods* Poor him...