Forever Lost

Well, unfortunately I will be unable to complete and publish the episode due to several factors. Many of the voices did not send in their parts, I accidentally deleted the files in which I had the parts that people actually sent in, and I am no longer doing anything with anime anymore. So thusly, if anyone so wishes to do a project of this sort, you may recruit off of these people who were cast as voices because they are extremely good and perfect for their parts. I hope you'll forgive me, and I planned to follow through, but it has become impossible for me. Ja ne.

Dear Anonymous, It might be forever before you hear my voice again. This one, here in my heart. You'll hear, with your ears, my physical voice, when I say good morning and ask for help. When I tell you they my week was fine, and that I'm doing alright. When I ask you how your day went, when I smile awkwardly because that's all I know how to do. I know you mean well. I had took a whole day to write you one day, but I couldn't send you the note. And it seems that I missed out when you gave me my last chance. I don't think you'll ever receive it. I'm sorry that I couldn't tear down my wall enough. I'm sorry that I assumed that somehow you already knew my happiness and that I could never put it into words. The only thing that I could share with you was my pain, and I never found words to explain my happiness. That must've hurt you, right? I apologize. Please understand, though, that I don't trust easily. Don't take me for granted. I know you're used to not being around, but soon I won't be either. I'll become an ojou-san before you know it. I'm going to become someone who doesn't cower, someone who doesn't hide, someone who uses their skills. However, if you want to call me 'friend', then you'll have to stop pretending to be mr. cool. I'm not going to chase after you. I won't follow you. I won't ask you for anything. You don't get to deny me my existence without consequence. Thank you for your kindness. Thank you for coming to my rescue. Thank you for supporting me. Thank you for giving me a time in the fairy tale world that I always wished for. Thank you. I'm sorry that I was never able to support you the same way. I'm sorry that I never could rescue you. I'm sorry that my kindness was so small. I'm sorry that I didn't brighten your life the same way. I'm sorry. They say time heals wounds. I don't know how to use that time in any other way, so I'll listen to your words and become better. But.. I'll also forget you. You're just another human being - same as me. No one super special. No one of real importance. For a year. Or until you do something yourself. The box is locked. Signed. The me who exists.

That should be an option: He doesn't have ANY weaknesses/Gary Stu character That's actually what I hate about him..

Well, if you think about it, death is scary for anyone. However when she is afraid around BO members, it's mostly because if they find her, they could harm those she was around. So that's why she has the ability to try committing suicide or not afraid (at least too much) to die. If they figure out what happened to her, then it's likely that they'll figure out the issue with Conan, etc. Her fear is for others, not herself.