Forever Lost 55 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 Falling in love with people. What a silly thing... I don't know if I could really say I love him.. because love is such a word ... but I do really strongly like him and I know it can't go anywhere and it feels like every time I get close to him we get farther away again and every time I try I seem to fail.. I want to just tear every wall I have down and just enjoy my time with him, with everyone, but it's not so easy, it's just so impossible.. These walls that I've spent so much time building up.. they're made of brick and my hands can't make them break. I can scream and I can cry, I can whisper I can sing, I can fight it I can do all that I can but they won't fall. I have no strength it seems and if I were given it, I wonder if they'd finally break Here and now I'd like to run, to run and hide in the arms of someone who truly loved me... But those arms you see, they are unseen, the only one who can calm this spirit and pass through the walls I've hidden myself behind... There is no one through which he can hold me right now and I can't explain to those who don't understand My frustration grows with every minute and I feel that if I run and I run or if I scream and I scream if I sing and I sing, if I cry out all I can it won't be enough, it won't bring it to a close I don't know what's wrong, no I don't know what's wrong. How can I fall into one-sided love so many times? And how can I deny the only one who's ever cared for me forever? How can I want to have his presence so much and yet deny him so many times? How dare I think of myself this way when he never left my side, when he's never left my side... how dare I.... But somehow my spirit won't rest and I can't help but think and wish a person loved me back Why is it... why is it my lord has made it this way? Why has he made it so that we depend on other humans? Why is it that he gave us emotions like he has? Why is it that he gives us the ability to love those around us? Why is it? I can't seem to deal with this... I can speak to you all I want but none of you can understand. There are few who understand my words and even less than that who care... Why do I like him?! He doesn't like me and it hurts to be ignored! It hurts even more to be ignored by him! And I shouldn't feel down, because I have my almighty Lord who loves me and who has never left me! But yet I feel this way! Ah, sou! I feel this way! It hurts! It's so immature of me.. it hurts... When I whisper you cannot hear me When I scream you cannot understand me When I cry you cannot bear me Naze... Well, it's safe to ignore this post. It's off-topic. Technically it's about LHC related issues but... Yeah. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Misaki-chan 164 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 @Cure, Oh. What are you listening to? @Je, *reads post* *BEAR HUG* Awww.... Je-chan..... *hugs more* <--- has no clue what to say, so instead hugs Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Forever Lost 55 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 *hugs back* I know you can't really say anything lol... but thanks Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Misaki-chan 164 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 Mou... I wish I could, demo.... It's just so hard for me to put it into words at the age I'm at. This is the bad thing about being one of the youngest members in this club. I can't really do much to comfort you guys since I can't comprehend it well enough to help. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Anti-APTX4869 181 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 a lot of songs... Bach: Cantata #147, BWV 147, "Herz Und Mund Und Tat Und Leben" - Jesu, Joy Of Man's Desiring Beethoven: Symphony #5 In C Minor, Op. 67 - 1. Allegro Con Brio Beethoven: Symphony #5 In C Minor, Op. 67 - 4. Allegro Beethoven: Symphony #6 In F, Op. 68, "Pastoral" - 3. Merry Gathering Of Country Folk Beethoven: Symphony #6 In F, Op. 68, "Pastoral" - 4. Thunderstorm Beethoven: Symphony #6 In F, Op. 68, "Pastoral" - 5. Shepherd's Song (Hymn Of Thanksgiving) Beethoven: Symphony #7 In A, Op. 92 - 4. Allegro Con Brio Beethoven: Symphony #9 In D Minor, Op. 125, "Choral" - 2. Scherzo Beethoven: Symphony #9 In D Minor, Op. 125, "Choral" - 4. Allegro Assai Concerto For Two Violins, first movement: Vivace Grieg: Peer Gynt Suite #1, Op. 46 - Morning Khachaturian: Sabre Dance Offenbach: Tales Of Hoffman - Barcarolle Vivaldi: Violin Concerto In F Minor, Op. 8/4, RV 297, "The Four Seasons (Winter)" - 1. Largo and more... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Forever Lost 55 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 *patpat* It's the senpai's job to comfort the kohai, not the other way around, neh? XD Plus, even the people I know who can say things in any situation are unable to understand XD There are things bothering me that a very few can say much of worth about lol.. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Misaki-chan 164 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 It's not that I don't (kinda) understand, it's just that my brain isn't at the point where it can put it into words effectively. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Forever Lost 55 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 I know what you mean Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kaitou Kid Legendary Thief 197 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 I am... at a loss of words... momo chan... >_< I wanna say something... but I think it got stuck at my throat... Let me just swallow it down... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Anti-APTX4869 181 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 Coffee... must have... noo.... the coffee maker is at home... wait, why didn't i just go home... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Forever Lost 55 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 ^^; daijobu, nana-chan Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kaitou Kid Legendary Thief 197 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 Lemme give you a hug instead *Hugs* Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Misaki-chan 164 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 I want one too! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Anti-APTX4869 181 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 @_@ Head spinning with Japanese: Daijobu -> 大丈夫(???) -> It's OK(?) well, *HUGS* *glance around* Hope Grace wasn't here... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Misaki-chan 164 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 I'm sure she wasn't. Thank you Cure-kun! ^_____^ Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kaitou Kid Legendary Thief 197 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 *Hugs Misaki chan* XD @CureKun: I saw that CureKun Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Misaki-chan 164 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 *hugs back* Thanks Kid-chan! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Anti-APTX4869 181 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 *Hugs Misaki chan* XD @CureKun: I saw that CureKun DCW members are fine... unless you are Grace --x Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Misaki-chan 164 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 Do not worry, we are not Grace. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Anti-APTX4869 181 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 I was joking. She's current;y helping her mom... i think O_O. wow they take time to cook... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Misaki-chan 164 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 Maybe it's a dish that takes a lot of time. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kaitou Kid Legendary Thief 197 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 Yea... maybe they're cooking some kind of herbs... or something Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Misaki-chan 164 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 Lol Kid-chan. Yes, they're putting all the herbs they have into a soup or something. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kaitou Kid Legendary Thief 197 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 That's why it takes so long... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Misaki-chan 164 Report post Posted June 28, 2011 According to us. XD Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
